I've thought about my past, I've thought about what happened, why it happened, why patterns repeated. But what I DON'T understand is why certain things keep happening, things that should be in my control but aren't.
Let me be clearer. I don't understand why I've relapsed into disordered eating again and again. I'm aware, I use the tools not to. Why does it happen? At what point will I be ready for complete (permanent) recovery?
That's what I don't understand, and I don't think I'm meant to understand it. It's not a problem I can think through. Only one I can feel through to overcome.
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